I Hate it When She Cries

Today was the last performance of the Suessical the Musical performance at my school.  I was a Wickersham and she was the main character, the Cat in the Hat.  She played the part better than anyone I know could have, but that's not why I'm writing.  Everyone was emotional because this is the last year for the 8th graders cast members aren't going to be able to see each other as much.  She just pretended to cry during the play and that put me on edge, but when she actually cried in front of everyone else I got panicked.  I couldn't think straight I had this feeling like I was pushed up against the wall and I was helpless to do anything.  It was like the sound of nails on a chalkboard to me.  Her beautiful face contorted with sorrow pushed me over the edge.  Being an actor I remained composure but behind it I was roiling.  I wanted to cry or at least talk to her, but I couldn't do either of things cause I had to look tough for the first reason and I can't think straight when I'm near her so talking is pretty much out the window.  Basically she's my cryptonite.  I tried to get over her but I got shoved right down the emotional ladder, but this time they took away the ladder and replace it with an oil slicked poll...Good Luck getting over that.  I can't talk much about this to most of my friends becuase I feel weird confessing this.  So I'll give them the link and let them decide.